Psychic tension. Tension psychique.
I've been offered a job... in a wonderful independent bookstore! Biosfaire offers books on everything from permaculture to Buddhism, to anthroposophy, holistic health, and transpersonal psychology, to community living, consciousness studies, and super foods...
I had walked in there out of curiosity, and did something I never quite dare to do by asking, ''Do you guys happen to have a job opening?''
''Well yes, actually, in March. You can give us your résumé.''
So I did. I printed the appropriate version and walked over there (It's 10 minutes from where I live right now, and it'll be a ten minute bike ride once I move to my new place ... and get a bike) to find the owner doing her inventories.
''I studied Philosophy, Cosmology, and Consciousness'', I said, handing my résumé. ''So your place pretty much feels like home!''
''Where did you study that?'' she asked.
''In San Francisco. I just returned.''
She called me about a week later, that is, a few days ago. ''Honestly,'' she told me, ''you are over qualified for this retail and service job... However, I do think you would have a good time working with us.''
I do too. The problem is that it doesn't pay anything. I mean, 16$/hour at a community center is already quite basic... But this.. is not even close to that.
I don't know what to do.
I just turned in an application for a position with the most amazing Non-Profit organization, called Exeko. There, I'd get to use words, and symbols, as well as my social skills (I'd work in communications), in order to represent and promote artistic, cultural, and educational programs which are taking place with indigenous, incarcerated, and mentally disabled populations! I mean, talk about an integration of my interests!
But what if I don't get it?
Maybe working in the hub of holistic health would be just as perfect...
I'd get to smell everything that's being published (oh! the scent of a freshly-printed book!), I'd certainly get to discuss eco-psychology, power of intention, and planetary wisdom with clients; I'd be able to speak that language on a day-to-day basis. I'd be surrounded by the work of those I emulate. I'd be inspired... and-or overwhelmed.
I was just telling a friend about feeling overwhelmed when I'm in a bookstore sometimes. I want to read them all, and comment on them all. I want to write them. (But not all).
I was just telling another friend, that regardless of my stance against capitalism and consumerism I actually want to be financially comfortable. I don't know exactly how that's done. I guess the more you have and the more you fear of losing it anyway. And what's being ''comfortable'' ? I've lived with the premise that keeping my needs in check is a good start. Do not succumb to the consumerisssss serpent. Do not get fooled by advertisement. So many get into debt trying to fulfill an emotional gap with stuff. I just have to make sure I don't do that. I just have to make sure I spend my money on what really matters...
But. 9, 75$ for an hour?
Acting out of fear? (of not finding something else)
Or acting out of love? (I've always dreamed of working in a library... and this is the best independent library in town!)
What do to?
The verbal dance of a Polypassionate. Being & Becoming... Expressing Impressions... Manifesting... worlds of imagination.
About this clown
- Ève
- I often feel that we're all spinning slowly... like a mirror ball. Yes, we are all mirrors to each other. And so, it is the Light between us that I hope to help reveal and celebrate. /// J'ai souvent l'impression que nous sommes une boule disco qui tourne lentement. Nous sommes tous des miroirs pour les uns les autres. C'est donc la lumière qu'il y a entre nous que j'espère contribuer à souligner et à célébrer.
can you get the library job and then quit if you get teh non profit job?
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ReplyDeleteI don't want to do that.. it wouldn't be fair to the owner. I went there to day and chatted with her actually. I still don't know what I'm going to do. Meanwhile, I also talked with the director of the Non-Profit, who told me the job posting I had seen was actually kind of fake, because they're keeping their Communication person. They needed to post an add because of work visa reasons. Having been in that situation myself, I can understand!...
ReplyDeleteBUT I'm meeting with her next week (!!!) to talk about other small projects I could potentially get into. Nothing full-time, but still... dream work: mediating philosophy discussions ... in jails!! I shouldn't get too excited yet. But there :)
Now... if I work with Exeko during the evenings, perhaps I could take the library job?
Or should I go for that government program I was told about, which finances original projects by youth up to 29 years old? My thoughts? Work on translating some important piece of work into French. But which one?
Oh! Options abound!
I am so grateful!