I haven't felt like writing much, as some of you might have noticed. I needed, I wanted, to just be with what I'm going through. Being, in the midst of the storm. To see.
The beautiful thing is that these past five days have managed to tie me back to my core... in a way that I had deeply been needing. I knew it would happen. I had been waiting for this workshop for a while now: finally: a bit of Butoh. (Or as they write in French: butô.)
Studio 303, Montréal. Twenty movers I had been excited to meet, for I figured they would share my love of Butoh, or at least, of one aspect of it.
We had the opportunity to spend 20h with world-renown teacher and choreographer, Yumiko Yoshioka, as part of her big tour. How wonderful it must be to travel the world and teach this art form and this wisdom!
As she said, Butoh is not just a dance. It's also a way of life.
Yumiko Yoshioka tells us that, for her, ''Butoh is dance of transformation.'' She said, ''It is a passageway, a medium. It can be also be dance of darkness, of the unconscious.''
And that my friends... is why I am attracted with this art form-process...
It's that encounter with the in-between again, that space of transition... for it's at the very center of every breath, in the heart of the process, that I experience Life to her fullest...
When I dance butoh, I am in relationship with oneness. I do not always feel at one, but I am searching for it, through consciousness and through my body... from inside AND outside, simultaneously, within both the physical and the imaginal environment, I try to listen and surrender. I stop thinking and I move. Naturally.
Waves. Waves. Waves.
I thoroughly enjoyed Yumiko Yoshiota's Butoh.
''The essence of wave, is to transmit.''
Yes. That's what I want to do.
''The yin and the yang are always within one another. Life and Form chase each other...''
I'd be lying if I said I completely succeeded in forgetting about my [looking for work] situation... ''What do I want to do? Where do I want to work?'' ... I've come to realize I've been throwing my energy in a million directions. Work? Work? I could do a million things! I only need someone to give me a chance!
What I really need right now, is to stop and be for a little bit... in a yin kinda place. There is no need to be all yang and proactive if I haven't given myself the time to listen... to what I really want to be doing.
Sure, I seem to be running out of money. But I must accept, this is a big transition indeed. Butoh is reminding me: the beauty is in the process.
(Caution: I've known this for a while and I might be a bit addicted to that state of becoming...)
Yumiko says: ''Pain is often the best teacher. Love is the best healer.''
This week, I did EXACTLY what I LOVE.
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| A space I had found in Barcelona... the last time I took half an hour to dance like this... slowly... |
P.P.S. For those that could be interested: Yumiko will be teaching in Québec city next week (I think I'm going for part of it!!) and then in Toronto...
P.P.S. For my part, I'll be teaching in a community center somewhere north of Montréal... My first dance class to a group of 3-5 years old!!
:)
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