womb shaking

I've been thinking about how I'm feeling.

I've been feeling about how I'm thinking.

My womb might have something to say.  An ineffable tendency, a necessity to feel it all...
Feeling like I'm keeping afloat amidst the formlessness of creative waters
Can't quite find a grasp, or the words.
Filled with overwhelming sensations and foggy visions
Can't yet speak of a direction.

The ten thousand things are shooting around,
Imminent ecological collapse.
Let's face it.

Denial is of no use anymore.  The masks are falling.

Still, what if all we had was this moment?
What if we finally understood this fact, because we can.  What if we took what the Buddha left for us to try on? What if we did actually try to learn from the history of ''European colonialism'' ?  What if the species homo sapiens, sapiens, had something more to learn?
What if we were but cousins of former civilizations?  Mayans? Dinosaurs?

Time is much bigger than we think.
Time stretches hundreds of millennia.
Now is a new idea.  Now holds new choices.

The prevalent cosmological myth:
13,75 billion years ago: Hydrogen and Oxygen meet each other, the big Sound of Energy becoming matter.  nothingness into form.  The Word.
Our solar system is known now, to be one amongst many.
Ponder.

40,000 years ago:  Upper Paleolithic.

Today: the brick of the 6th mass extinction.  The greatest mass extinction of species since the disparition of dinosaurs, 65,000 years ago.

It's a lot to comprehend.

Maybe that's why all I can seem to do is FEEL.